There is a lot of sad stuff going on in my life . Stuff I would gladly trade my heart not to be going on. I do not have a perfect life, or maybe a home. I swallowed all my emotions. I made horrible mistakes. People says I'm stupid. My friends are drifting away from me ... There's also things i couldn't help, even my own sister. I miss her, and so as my parents. I've got no idea where is she and when will she be coming back home. No point smiling when part of my smiles' are missing. I don't know what to do. Exams are eighteen days away, I'm still not in a good condition to get books nailed in my mind. I'm tired, i cried, but i couldn't let myself hanging there .. I never knew how strong i am, until being strong is the only choice I'm left. Should I go left where there's nothing right? Or should I go right, where there's nothing left...?

If you're thinking every fairy tale ends with "and they lived happily ever after" and you'd be right.  Or Maybe you're thinking life is not a fairy tale or that I'd be foolish in believing anyone can have a happily ever after and you might be right.  You may be thinking it's impossible to have a happily ever after in real life and you'd be wrong.  It isn't impossible so I choose to believe I will have my happily ever after.

I miss you ..