Honestly, i didn't attend school for quite a number of days since last week. Its not that i i'm lazy ... its not that i hate my teachers and definitely not because of homework. Yes, i love to study and i enjoy doing homework! I used to be that obedient girl that attend school every single day without fail. Zero numbers of late coming. My assignments completed without blanks ... but they ruined it. I didn't go school for some reasons ....... I felt so left out in class, i shouldn't be in the there at the first place. Being surrounded by a group of i-don't-know strangers, the feeling is worse than watching a horror movie .. I can't imagine another day in school, its hell. I don't even fit in there. I used to sit alone, right in the middle of the class. I'm fine with it .. until the seating arrangement change. I seated with people that treated me as a transparent glass. They approached me only when they need help, nothing else. I heard names being shouted across the class everyday, but not even once was mine. I felt so thick-skinned. I chose to stick around with them, trying to fit in ... telling them jokes, pretending to be happy, faking my smiles ..... but what for? I ended up alone. During break times, i can be sitting right at the center of the table with them ... but i just don't get it why none of them notice me. Listening to their conversations, is just like listening to a song that is of a different language. I'm just like a post-stick ... they used me when they're in need but they dump me aside after using it. Every morning i woke up at 5.40am. I look at myself in the mirror in my school uniform. I asked myslef, What is school? Why am i waking up so early for it? Sometimes i really wonder .... every morning when i'm waiting for bus, why does all those students look so happy as if like they can't wait for school to start? I'm not all .... My eyes started flowing invisible tears. "Friends are bullshits". Only Bella Lim Jiaying should be the one who's sitting next to me ..