Day 26 - The last person you made a pinky promise to

Ang Pei Yang ♥ Alright, now let me tell you guys something that i've written but never sent (><) I couldn't differentiate what is right or wrong. I've always wanted to tell 'someone' this; You know what? It doesn't matter now if im still waiting for you a not. One day you will realize that I really loved you. And you will realize that you won’t find anybody else who will love you the way I loved you. And I know, you won’t admit it now, but you will realize that. But I guess the day you realize that, it would be the day when I’m gonna be far away from this. I will get over you, and maybe I won’t forget you, but I will get over you one day. And when you realize how much I loved you, maybe you won’t come after me, actually I know that you won’t because you are way too much proud, but you will know that you let the girl who really loved you go. And she loved you for who you are, nothing more and nothing less, i've moved on. That's what you taught me. Maybe part of loving is learning to let go .. I won't be sad for being without someone who is happy being without me. I'll be happy for you ☺ And so to every girls out there, do remember what i'm going to type next. If someone broke your heart just get over him. He's not even worth it. He is not worth your time or your tears. Yes you loved him, I know that. And I know you just can't see yourself with anyone other than him, I get that. I've been there. But why should you spend all your time sitting at home, bawling your eyes out and wondering where he is and who he is with. Do you honestly think he is thinking about you? No. Sure it hurts, the fact that he is out there falling in and out of love with other girls. Yeah you will see him with one of his new girlfriends. Prepare yourself, because straight up it'll hurt more than anything else. He will hold her a little closer and squeeze her hand a little tighter just because he knows your watching. He knows its killing you and that's why he will do it. Don't let him get to you because that's exactly what he wants. Don't give him what he wants. He doesn't even deserve it. So what if he doesn't talk to you? Do you honestly want to be friends with an asshole like him anyway? Thing is I know you still do. But give it time. Because all he would do is talk about his new girlfriend and just try and make you jealous, do you really want to hear that? No. Screw him and his girlfriend. He will be sorry. Trust me. When he finally sees you with some other guy who's not him. With that huge grin on your face and your boyfriend holding you close, he will realize how happy you are now. And how happy your boyfriend is because he has you, the girl of his dreams. He will realize the huge mistake he made when he let you go, when he decided to choose her over you. When he decided he just did not love you the same. Trust me, in his heart he'll sure repeat this, "Damn i shouldn't have left her" And don't you sit there thinking he won't be sorry but I guarantee you now. He will be sorry. So don't go on spending your nights waiting for that one phone call you know your never gonna get, online your messenger 24hour just to see his name appear online. Or that sms you know he will never send you simply because he likes to ignore you. Once again trust me, i've tried it and in the end you'll just be wasting your precious time. He like to pretend he does not see you online, he does it outta spite just because he knows its killing you. When he walk past you, he is gonna look past you, but you need to know he will do that because he knows somewhere inside you, it will hurt. I ain't gonna lie to you. It will hurt. It will really hurt a lot. But it will hurt even more when you see her name and how much he loves her in his profile. Its all gonna hurt. Knowing your not the girl that is making him smile. Knowing your not the first person he thinks of when he wakes up and the last before he goes to sleep. Knowing your not the face on his background of his phone anymore. Knowing if he hasn't already he will delete the album of pictures of you he has on his phone. Knowing you wont be spending every single moment possible with him. Knowing there's gonna be no more late night phone calls arguing about who love who the most. And you know what, today, tomorrow, next week, months from now, your phone will go off without a single text message from him, you will instantly grab your phone hoping its him, thinking that he'll say he wants to give your relationship another shot. But trust me, he's got too much pride to type those. Even if he wanted to be back with you, he wouldn't tell you. You're soon going realize he doesn't care about you anymore and he wont be the first person you call when your upset. He won't be the one to put that smile back on your face. But you know what you must do? You're going to hold your head up. Your must show him that you're better than him and you don't need him in your life. You're going to prove to him that you're happy without him. That's all, i hope after reading will help to cure that pain a little? Actually .. all this explains my life.