Day 18 - The person that you wish you could be

Sometimes i wish i could be Fierce
Sometimes i wish i could be Heartless
Sometimes i wish i could be more Courageous
Sometimes i wish i could be so Selfish that nothing and no one else mattered but me

I wish i could be more fierce ! People aren't scared of me. They took my words as jokes. No matter what i've said, they just ignored me or maybe giving me some negative replies? It really irritates me ! If only i could be fierce, they'll listen to me right?

I wish i could go on with life not caring what other people think regardless if its good or bad. Its easy to say you don't care but a small percentage of you does. Like i said before you cant get through life without other people so i'd be foolish to say i don't care at all? Sometimes i tend to forgive someone that i really hates when they suddenly cried infront of me. Not only this but i also crys over sad happenings. I don't know why, but it happened in me.

I wish i could stand up for what's right and wrong. I admit im afraid of little things for example like, being alone. I guess im just lonely .. I'll just do what others told me to, i don't care if its right or wrong. Thinking back im just stupid. Just like when i gave others my homeworks to copy .. that doesn't benefit them and me as well ? And keeping quiet is not a good thing too. I just want to have the courage to speak up.

"Im not a fighter, but i fight for what i love and things that's precious to me"

Weather is cold today. That's the reason that makes me sleepy during lessons. Today's food and nutrition lesson was kinda .. disgusting. As in the new topic Mrs Shara was teaching and that video she showed the class.. and the disease ? Bulimia and Anorexia. Eww. So far, im still able to understand what i've been listening these few days accept for Principles Of Account. I can say that i really catch no ball? Im having more and more homework each day. Projects are coming up soon i guess. I didn't want to go for the cca open house today, so i went home instead because im tired. Darren ... he said byebye to me with a smile just now. Hmm he's character is just weird eh, cause sometimes he'll just point a middle finger at me and walk away, unlike today. But on the other hand, he's a nice guy and he's humorous too !

"I wasn't made that way. I wasn't raised that way. I will never be that way" - yeaps its true !